feeling lonely. very lonely. so lonely. *sighs*

peter cincotti was in town at thumpers having his private concert. he is so cute. *slurps* something usually stirs in me when i see a guy cute guy playing the piano soulfully. like lee hom. i love watching mtvs of lee hom playing the piano. its just sooper dooper sexy lor.

i know a couple of guys (like my one-and-only-ex) that play the piano but they don't play the piano soulfully. its a different feeling when they just play or they play from their heart and soul, immersing themselves in it and playing using their feelings (as in not reading from the score).

during my stint as a relief teacher a short while back, the school had organized a music week where each individual class would take turns and sing or play recorders for the rest of the school.

then the organizing teachers committee shot an arrow at a pe teacher to be a guest performer. he played 'gan xin ti dai ni' by ekin cheng on the piano. its such a romantic song, one of my favourites. the way he played is damn mesmerizing. like lee hom. i just didn't see him in the same light as before after his performance. cool, cute, handsome, well-built, tanned WITH a soft edge. *drools* hur hur...

nope, my dar don't play the piano but i still think he is ultra mega sexy and i love him very very very much. *grins* (well, just in case dar reads this and is sadded by my guys-play-piano-sexy fetish. must have disclaimer ma. hee...)

my legs were aching badly yesterday night after the short shopping trip. we didn't even cover a lot of ground (heeren marche, hello singtel, takashimaya post office, takashimaya zara, takashimaya guess, takashimaya levis, lucky plaza levis, scotts mango and THATS IT lor) but i want to die from the pain already. =( getting old already. so sad.

we went to this newly opened cafe called il caffe di roma that is set up by a good buddy of lim buey tor. he was like promoting it so much that, since i was in the area and feeling so tired after the walking around, so sat down there and had a cuppa.

one of the (among the many) cafe's unique proposition is that it uses special looking glasses to serve its iced water. the construction of that glass and the way it rest on the waitress tray on its way to my table worried me for a minute ok. heh...

anyways, the cafe is located at a really good spot to people-watch. but singapore so little yan daos, so me and char were bag-watching instead. counting the number of lvs, pradas, guccis, diors walking past. so many lor. wishing we can be among the many.

i'm a good girl today. stayed home to clean up the house thoroughly (really thoroughly ok) although i wish i can be out doing something more interesting. but i must do it or else once my work starts, i would hardly have time for such thorough cleaning.

think my bones are getting lazy. i used to mop the floor twice a week, now its only once and i'm complaining. complaining a LOT. *bleahz* not working now somemore.

3 more days. *gasp* i've lost the working momentum. lost the balance between work, home and school as well. need some time to get it back. to be more exact, maybe much time is more appropriate.

thinking of next tuesday makes me depress. no more waking up at 5pm. no more leisurely lunches. no more do-what-i-please anytime. *arghhh* i must be and stay positive. washing my own brain - i love my work, i love my work, I LOVE MY WORK...

i'm so full that i want to puke big-time.

had dinner with joanna and huizhen at newton circus hawker centre. its so so so yummy lor (at least it was when i was fantasing about the food on the way there and when we were starting to eat). =9 we had sambal sting ray, sambal kang kong, hum, chicken wings, carrot cake, or-ruah, hokkien mee with sugar cane and lychee drinks to wash it down.

but now i just feel like vomiting. my stomach is still hurting from all the gorging. *burps* please don't talk to me about eating within the next 24 hours ok. =P

meeting charmaine for lunch tomorrow at heeren's marche (ooops, that's food, please excuse me while i go to the toilet to......pooourghhh) before the walk-walk and the shop-shop. but i'm pathetically poor so cannot splurge on anything. *wails*

one part of me is feeling happy i'm starting work next tuesday because i will have more money. YAYS~ but another part is dreading it because of all the meetings, meetings and more meetings that i must attend. BOOS~

life is always such a delimma with never-ending contradictions...well...to me at least...i guess. =/ *sighs*

*yawns* i'm up dark and early today in an attempt to right my body clock. its all inverted - sleep at 5am, wake up at 5pm.

i tried so damn hard to right it yesterday after waking up at 9am, however, because i slept at 5am on sunday night or rather sunday morning, i can't help (heavy head and unworking mind) but dozed off at 12pm and only woke up at 6pm. *geez* so yesterday night, i used all my willpower to lull myself to sleep at 11pm and DA-DAH - i'm here now at 7.12am and not feeling that tired! heh... [edited at 7.46am : *yawns* is it time for bed YET?]

was watching the 15 minutes news on channel u at 9pm last night and they had a clip on lian zhan visiting nan jing and the blue vs green supporters creating a ruckus at the airport. all the shouting, pushing, kicking and throwing of whatever is at hand, especially eggs. furnee thing to bring to an airport right - eggs. i mean they were all prepared to be mean lor.

their regular cabinet elections are a joke lor. watching adults hooting one another and tussling on the floor. i watch them (usually, i would avoid politic news) to have a good laugh.

i don't know whether to be happy or sad for them. happy because they really love their country. sad because they are so kiddish in the way they show their love for their country. don't need to be so violent right? can be more civilised right? we don't see such happening anywhere else in the world ma. then again, i guess they treat it as their country's 'tu chan' (national symbolic product) ba. haa...

regardless on whatever their issues with the world is, I WANT TO VISIT TAIWAN! all the yummy food. *slurps* with the budget airlines tickets so affordable, i must, die die must go there soon. but firstest, i must ...... save. =[ thats my worst trait. %$#%*^%$*^$ how?

uzyn was seeking help as he was part of the conspiracy. i think its highly entertaining.

another week gone. time seem to pass so fast. sometimes i really wish it can stop in its tracks, like now.

had a good weekend. though i didn't do anything much (usual routine stuffs - wake up, lunch, idle, dinner, tv, sleep) but i'm contented.

my thoughts are rather lost and restless now. can't seem to settle them (my thoughts) at all. i had actually typed out 6 whole paragraphs of stuffs and then just deleted it as it didn't feel right.

ignore me. think i'm pms-ing. time of the month. mind's feeling kinda low at the moment. hmmmmmmps...

i love bloghopping. some blogs are just so side-spilting. i like to have a good laugh anytime. heh...

muahahahahaha... i was laughing so hard after i read that sometime back during my stressful exams period that i simply think i should share that moment with everyone.

its lifted from bird's, my loyal supporter (as he coins it), blog. interesting life he leads. interesting stuffs he do. interesting events he encounters. =) *envy*

on top of reading hilarious blogs to make me happy, reading other blogs allows me to imgaine myself in that person's life for a while. going through what the person is going through at that moment. and seeing the many facets of life i may never know can exist.

i also like the idea that friends will know how one another is doing through reading each other blogs even without the usual communication like sms, e-mail, phonecall or snail mail (but i do love receiving letters or cards from friends, very personalised). it keeps one another close without being close.

my blog is 8 months old now. not a long time. but i'm definitely loving every minute of it since the day i step into the blogosphere. its an avenue for me to rant my thoughts, pend my thoughts, diarise my thoughts. i've met many new friends. receive much support.

cheers to the advent of blogging and my blogging friends. *toast*

"sweet, so sweet, the taste of her, warming him, soothing him, exciting him. soft, so soft, the feel of her, tempting him, luring him, charming him. and quiet, so quiet, that quick, catching sigh that sent a streak of lightning zipping up his spine."

that paragraph is simply so well-written that i'm just so enormerously captivated. i've finished my very first 500-paged book of nora roberts titled 'charmed & enchanted'.

its so...magical. *awww*

i simply love romance novels. romance novels with some magic i've just decided, are even better! it promotes my favourite habit - daydreaming.

this book is about good witches. witches that can heal, shift shapes, do magical things like teleporting, sight like reading other people minds. and the book is mainly on how the main witch character fell in love, after a hard time explaining to their true love, who they really are. then having babies that filled their own cribs with rabbits unknowingly or make things disappear unconsiously.

its really so so so nice but i don't think anyone can understand how i overwhelming nice i feel. starting to read the 2nd title but its not about magic so i'm still rather caught in the 1st book. *sighs* wish i have some magic in me now too. *daydreaming*

loving romance with magic storylines is just as i like the vampires vs lycans movielines anytime. haven't had the opportunity to read any books with vampires and lycans in it though. only watched movies on that so far. anyone know any books, specifically romance books, with the vampires vs lycans plot? i think i would dig that too.

i'm so in love with the latest cadbury's advertisements on tv. the theme song is one of my favourite songs "wouldn't it be nice". but they have edited the original lyrics and its simply hilarious. =)

had a sooper dooper boring day today. can fight with monday. all i did was to drive mom to pick up 2 electric kettles redeemed using shell points at a sooper dooper ulu place called tagore dr. hais... how interesting hor.

well, i simply love spending time with dar. we are going to spend the next 2 days together doing some fun stuffs before my freedom ends (i'm getting sleepless over it, can't get to sleep last night) because he took 'leave'. heh heh...

the plans to 'doing some fun stuffs' were actually for next thursday and friday initially but he's feeling rather worn out from work this week so decided to push forward to tomorrow and friday instead lor.

he went to see the usual 'leave approval personnel' after dinner after dropping off me and regan at lot 1. wanted to return my book and borrow more books plus i'm craving for honey red bubble tea. *slurps*

so now i got 3 new books to keep myself busy and regan got 1 for me to read to him during bedtime. yay~

chose a new author jamie had recommended - nora roberts. "thanks jamie! i was getting desperate as i've read almost all the danielle steel books available at the library and even re-reading some of the titles. so luckily you came along and shared your favourites. =) hur hur... i think nora roberts is really good. i've started abit and its really an intriguing read."

looking forward to tomorrow's 'doing some fun stuffs' - sumptuous lunch at suntec city 'chong qing hotpot' and ktv singing at chinatown kbox! wheeeee~

"the day ended early for me" - 15 april. i must emphasize what that means is that i will sleep before 12am. i usually sleep at 4am.

continuing, i've failed to mention that last friday, 15 april, my ingenious brother, fractured his wrist while playing basketball with friends in school, leading to me and my parents spending 2 hours at the children's emergency of nuh. yes, he is still categorised under children. *bleahz* say he young he still reflutes us. want his independence, freedom, privacy and blah blah blah. all the headaches for parents that comes with 16-yr-olds. =(

and so today after doing some barang barang shopping at choa chu kang's lot 1, drove him to nuh to wait for another 2 hours once again as he was feeling discomfort in his wrist. there was supposedly a follow-up review of his wrist this morning, but somehow or rather, he didn't receive the call and by the time i called (11 am today) them, the appointment (9 am today) was already over. *geez* and the nearest appointment slot is next tuesday, 26 april. kaos... so long. by that time, his wrist also don't know how le. =S

i find that they are so highly inefficient. last friday, my brother checked-in at 4.30pm and we left only at 11.30pm (me & my parents went over only at 9.30pm as dad had to send some of his overseas staffs whom were here on a holiday to the airport in the evening, i ended up machiam tour-guide telling his staffs where to get their gst refund, check-in and the likes of it, "dad, i demand my wages!"). thats a whooping 7 hours. i mean i can understand they attend to those that are critically ill. but i find that they can move faster right!

like today, they also take so long can (though not as long but bad enough lor). when we went, there was no patients at the waiting area. one patient (same left fractured arm, indian boy - this shows how noti boys are can, all the horse plays) receiving treatment inside the room. then we wait wait wait. along came another patient (quite serious, delirious condition, chinese little girl but look like chinese little boy till the chinese little girl's ntuc working mom was telling the other fractured arm indian boy's dad that 'her daugther something something' in her smattering english) being wheeled in. then we wait wait wait. and thats all what.

further the indian boy's arm was already casted by the time we got there. i really don't understand why we had to wait so long. there were like 3 doctors on duty walking around. there were 6 nurses on duty sitting around. and there were 0 other patients milling around. *grrrrrrr*

i know la. i'm the usual singapore-lang complaining and whining - want good service and don't want to pay good price. because you must be thinking if i don't want to wait can go private hospital's a & e right. heh...

anyways, heng i went to the library to get myself yet another romance book when i did my barang barang shopping earlier lor. so at least time passed less painfully for me. i've already finished the whole book (just nice) while i was there.

well, that means, off to the library tomorrow i go to get yet yet another romance book to keep my time occupied in between commuting and waiting. hur hur...

oh yes, must remember dinner with rowena tomorrow. though i just met her on friday but we agreed on dinner initially. the lunchie was a kinda impromptu thingy because i was in the area. flew her aeroplane on monday. getting sooper pissed at me already. i always cancel her last minute. =P

i really had a great sunday today! =) its been long since i enjoyed my sunday so much. bliss...

well, the day started with me waking up at noon-time and everyone else awake as usual. *bleahz* went to wheelock place to eat at sakae sushi for lunch thereafter. although i just ate some on thursday, i still crave for it lor. hee... then dar drove me & regan over to plaza sing's spotlight so that i can get some art & craft's materials for regan's school project while he pop by to sim lim to get his repaired hard disk back.

i did shopped around plaza sing to see if there's any nice clothes to buy but didn't see anything i liked. *sighs* dar came back to pick us up about 2 hrs later, and after knowing how much i spent on regan's school project (not a lot ok, $30 only what), he started becoming angry as he thinks i'm nuts to spend so much on this regan's monthly school project thingy. =(

well, i had nothing to do so i walked, i choose, i put into basket and when i went to pay, its so much ma. i did asked dar to go with me to walk, choose and put into basket but he don't want (he will usually really scrutinise to-buy-or-not-to-buy, unlike me, like-then-buy-lor attitude). then when i spend so much, he start getting upset. *grrrrr*

anyways, so we had a tiff about it in the car on the way home. but was pretty much getting over it by the time the car drove into our estate's carpark. =P my strategy is to start talking about something that will interest him...like the new car we would be getting. heh heh... i got tactic one ok.

got home changed into shorts and went to bukit batok nature park to bring regan out for some fresh air though he insisted on staying home to play computer games. after dragging him to the car, he insisted on just playing at the playground downstairs so that he can get home faster to play computer games. *geez* i can read his mind by what he says ok. haa...

me : regan, hurry up, we go play at the playground.
regan : don't want. i want to play computer games.
me : no la. come back then play. you wear your sandals N-O-W!
regan : *hmpf*
~walking to car~
regan : play the playground here la, very nice also what!
me : no la, we go bukit batok nature park's playground ok. you like one what.
regan : don't want. i want to play here.

haha... but objections over-ruled. dar dropped us at the park and drove over to autobacs which is nearby to look at some car audio systems. i hate to think how much he would be spending on the new car. =(

well, before regan got to play anything at the park's playground, he had a fall because he was wearing his ugly green pair of slippers, which till now, he hasn't really got used to wearing. seldom wear ma as its so awful. hence, his awkward walking caused him to trip when he tried to walk faster. me & him ended up sitting at the bench beside the playground for 1 and 1/2 hrs. =P couldn't get dar as my hp went dead on me. so we had to wait there for dar to find us as initially arranged.

when we got there, there were some bird enthusiast gathering (wa say, most even bring along a sooper dooper professional looking camera to shoot their feather friends lor), there were a lot of joggers around, there were many kids playing at the playground. we waited till, all the bird enthusiast had left, all the joggers had left, all the kids had left before dar came. regan had whined the whole time because his leg hurts. i had to tell him jokes, sing him songs and chat with him to distract him. =(

dar knowing i'm seething with some anger, brought me to dinner at bukit timah market and ordered my favourite foods. food makes me happy. so i was a happy woman once again. haha...

then we came home, bathed and i got on to do regan's school project. *hmpf* suppose to be regan's school project lor. end up its mine. life of parents!

i think it really looks so much nicer than the last one i did. hur hur...

::~188~::

my exams are finally over and done with, well, for this semester at least (trying not to think about my new semester that thats in 2 weeks time and next exam thats in october). wheeeee~ its PARTY TIME! haha... but thats just a statement la, i don't party that much. getting too old for that. feel so out-of-place in clubs, like "what's this obasan doing here?"

the exams for my course starts and ends earliest among most courses around in singapore. to all those whom are still mugging, "STUDY HARD" ok. nothing beats the satisfaction of rewarding yourself with hard play after all the hard work. unlike me, whom wasn't feeling at all happy after my exams simply because i feel i hadn't put in enough efforts. playing seems like any other day as i had been playing all along everyday can. *bleahz*

this couple of days has been like so filled with activities all of a sudden. everything seems to just come at once.

anyways, well, heres how my days weeent... it just seems to fly by. "time, can you slow down a little?"

14 april

struggled with myself whether to go sit for a paper that i know i'm sure will not be able to write more than 3 lines. in the end, decided to just go for it - if you don't try you will never know. maybe the examiner might decide to ask us to recite the a-b-c backwards. i'm sure i can do that.

well, the paper was not bad afterall. meaning i will fail less badly. haa...

took a bus from school to lot 1 to take my lunch at sakae sushi. dar's driving the car nowadays as i prefer to be fetched around. heh... i like eating alone. just sitting there with yourself and a book is so idyllic. like without a care in the world. like nothing can rush you. like everything around isn't important at all.

a book. yes, i had pop by into the library to borrow a book before getting lunch. as usual la, i always go for romance books. haha... how un-self-improving. only teenagers read romance books. my favourite romance author is danielle steel. =} i hate to start reading a book sometimes, it makes me want the read the book from cover-to-cover all at one shot, ignoring everyone and everything else.

after finishing lunch, met up with dap to go to kbox and sing our lungs out impromptu-ly. she had nothing to do, i had nothing to do, so meet up lor. "oei, actually you got something to do ok. you got to study lors." its been ages since i've been ktv-ing. i totally sucks at it, tormenting everyone (xiangyingjoined us later) with my horrible horrible vocals. they (dap & xiangying) make me feel old. they are so much younger than me. *sighs* we could sing till 9pm but i left earlier. its really pretty worth it. $14 and you can sing from 3pm to 9pm (i think as i went at 4pm like that).

its dinner at home or rather mom's house after that.

*sighs* when i shouldn't be blogging, i spent all my time doing it. when i could blog all i want, i had no desire to do it. played online games (scrabble, goldmining, mahjong) till 3am before turning in. felt so zombified.

oh yes, did i mentioned i spent an entire hour changing all my online passwords. tedious man. so many different types of online accounts - blogging related, games related, emails related, school related, work related.

i had got signed out of msn when talking to friends suddenly with an error message popping out saying "you have been signed out of msn for this session because msn detected you have signed in somewhere else" or something along that line. freaked me out.

someone had hacked into my account sia. *grrrrr* well, not that it is difficult to do so as my old password was really easy to remember. as easy as abc. the old password is literally 'abc123'. please don't try to guess my new one. please don't hack my account. please please please. i don't want to go through the process so soon man. damn torturous. i use the same password for all so that i don't forget which i use for which. hence, if i change one, i will change all. =/

15 april
got awoken at 8am by the ringing of my phone. today is the last day of 'qing ming jie'.

arranged with the kampong to go sweep ah ma and ah gong's tombs at lim chu kang so late this year because had waited for 'xiao shu' (dad's youngest brother) to come back from overseas (his work based him in sri lanka). he is the apple of ah ma's eye as he is the youngest son.

ah ma worried about him constantly before she left the world as he hadn't had a proper job back then. ah ma worried about him constantly before she left the world as he was single back then. ah ma worried about him constantly before she left the world as he's always happy-go-lucky and not serious back then. but 'xiao shu' now has a great job, a great wife anda great daughter. =>

~ring ring ring~
mom : wake up liao not?
me : ya
mom : get ready ok.
me : ok

its been ages since the last time i went with them. i wasn't allowed to go as my surname is not theirs anymore. i hate their mentality. its what makes me pissed off sometimes.

sister : you going sweep tomb tomorrow?
me : ya
sister : mom asked me to
go, i said i don't want. then she say none of the grandchildren going so
insisted i go, but i said linda going what, got ma. then mom said, linda is not chua anymore so she is not considered chua's grandchild.
me : *stunned & speechless*

i felt completely devastated. i had wanted to go every year because i miss my ah ma. even though she is a very traditonal woman whom favoured boys than girls, but she had been so wonderful to us when she was around. she would cook nice things for us to eat every weekend when we go visit her, bring us to the playground and buy sweets for us. but i hadn't had the opportunity to sweep her tomb since 4 years back. it didn't matter a lot to me as my ah ma lives in my heart but i thought she would be happy to see me.

i hadn't wanted to go after that conversation with my sister. but mom called the next morning despite me voicing out that i'm not going due to her not appreciating my efforts to go. i know she loves me alot but she really has this old-fashioned thinking that makes me really so upset always. their such attitude really affects me. i'm still their daugther what. *sobs*

~phone rings again 5 minutes later~
mom : you wake up already?
me : ya
mom : you go to your next block, tell the man in the shop for offerings for grandmothers.
me : huh? don't need la. you buy so much already.
mom : you go now then wait below your block for us. we will be there in 15 minutes.

i didn't buy anything in the end. its not that i'm trying to be disrepectful or anything. its just so... i mean i do buy offerings during seventh month and the likes of such. *sighs*

i want to go because i want to see ah ma. i want to go because i can help them by carrying and arranging stuffs so the old people don't have to kneel down for long periods of time doing the latter. i want to go because it reminds me of my childhood days when ah ma is around.

and i'm sure ah ma wouldn't mind if i didn't bring along anything or not since mom already got a whole bootful. hmmm, maybe she would? as i said, she's a very traditional woman. ok lor, next year i get ready in advance can. not like just wake up, rushing to get ready, then dash across a few blocks and a big carpark (mom remembered wrongly ok, its not the next block) to get the stuffs and then run back to wait for the car. =(

i nearly cried when i saw ah ma. its so different from just seeing her tablet at my aunt's house. that is just words. but i can see her picture of her on her tomb and bring me back to the past, i just felt so sad. i really miss her.

lunched with the kampong and then rush to meet rowena for a while before going down to raffles place to settle some a whole lot of stuffs.

it was 4pm by the time i was done and went shopping around that area. saw a really really really lovely suit but they didn't have the skirt in size S. yes, i'm a S still ok. *boo*

the day ended early for me. feeling all worn out from the previous night mugging with no sleep in between (ktv-ing), late online gaming, early morning and no sleep in between (errands) again.

16 april

its noon as usual by the time i wake up on saturday. everyone else had got up by then. only me still pigging out. hur hur...

brought mom's car to fix a big dent that some unconsiderate anonymous bugger had inflicted. along with the dent is 2 ugly deep scratches. went to capitol centre in town where there's this famous dent remover workshop. credited by some wheel motoring and city beat ok. but they only do dents the size of coins and our dent is pretty horrendous. so got to bring it to a workshop to get it fixed.

drove to expo to see if there are any exhibitions or fairs as we were bored with nothing to do. they had a pet fair last sunday. but there was nothing on so drove home. did stopped in between at lot 1 to get some tea-time snacks (takopachi & old chang kee) and my honey red bubble tea. yum yum yum... =9

it was already 5pm when we finally got home. i didn't take my usual saturday nap as i was still caught up in my book. hadn't had time to complete it still.

dinner at mom's place. dad bought the famous 'yiam kuay' (salted chicken). very salty but very delicious. hee... cleaned out dollars cage before going back. turned to bukit panjang plaza to buy another cup of honey red bubble tea along the way. basket, its $1.20 there. so unfair. different pricing. should be standardised one ma. =P then got a stick of prawns from old chang kee. there had only that left for sale. =[ i always buy the squid fritters like earlier in the afternoon. so chewy. i love sotong la. anyhing to do with sotong will be my favourite. that's why i'm blur as sotong always ma.

i was so tired when i got home that took a nap in the middle of night from 9pm to 11.30pm. *bleahz* woke up to bathe and do some housework.

just ate some supper. i'm such a glutton. but i really love eating, eating and MORE eating! ok, point proven by all my food blogging. hur hur hur...

tomorrow is going to be another busy day. going to plaza singapura's spotlight to get some art & craft materials for regan's school project before heading to sim lim to get dar's repaired hard disk (finally after like 3 months) (forgot to take the receipt out today so cannot collect though we were so nearby). afternoon nappy, maybe can go for some exercise at bukit timah hill and then buy back dinner to eat. i got tomorrow's plan all work out. =)

hope your weekend is as interesting, enjoyable & fun as mine!

happy birthday to you~
happy birthday to you~
happy bbbiiirrrttthhhdddaayyy to sasa~
happy birthday to you!!!

wishing you a very happy twenty-Xth birthday, my dearest bestest blurest sa! hope you had many merry returns of the day and may all your birthday wishes for this year come true! =)

my 1st paper is starting in exactly 7 hours time. =[

i am having this throbbing seems-to-be-there-yet-don't-know-if-it-is-there headache since last night. stress stress stress. i have never been this stress for my exams. must be due to the lack of my preparation this time round.

thank you to my concerned friends whom left me encouraging messages here. amidst all the memorising of notes, snacking, tv watching and snoozing in between (imagine watch finish tv at 9pm, try concenterate on studying but fell asleep at 9.15pm, only jotted awake at 1am to log online till 3am, got offline because hungry so eat a cup of instant noodles, then try to study a little bit again and fall asleep at 4.30am again. conclusion - i'm really DONE for! ), i've received couple of touching and motivating sms-es as well.

family : finished studying liao anot?
me : no. i fell asleep on my sofa lor. n i was online lor. sian. stress. arghhhhh...
family : u online? modem nv keep uh? still got how much? tmr marketing leh. u shld be more confident.
me : dun noe la. hais. very sian. tell me a joke.
family :

i'm speechlessly touched by family's efforts to replicate the whole joke that family heard from her friend last week, on sms to me lor. even more so as some time back, i had asked family exactly the same question and family replied me "oei, i'm not a clown ok". =/

"thanks a lot, cal! your joke really did much to make me feel better. and you must be wondering why 'family' right? =D i catergorize you under 'family' in my msn what, sister-in-law-to-be ma. hur hur..."

look at all those fluffy white pillows and beds. like so comfortable can. this restaurant (yes, its a restaurant) is located in bangkok and it simply rocks! its known as the bed supperclub. well, the name literally tells it all. definitely a must-go if i do go to bangkok because i usually avoid bangkok even with all the cheap food, cheap merchandises, cheap accomodation and cheap air tickets due to its temperature - hot hot hot. anyways, this popular restaurant needs prior reservations to enjoy the dinner-in-bed experience and its menu is one-for-all. but the concept is absolutely unique to cover any of its shortfall, inadequacy or inconveniences. =)

i'm so dead. can someone dig a hole to get ready to bury me? first paper in *gasp* 1 day. *sighs* ok, back to memorising my "marketing management" notes again. hais... oh yes, to my msn friends, you won't be seeing me online tomorrow. i've asked dar to bring the modem to work so that i won't have any chance, any temptation, any opportunity to log-on. a desperate measure by yours truly to curb herself. *boo*

singapore is so boring sometimes. or maybe my life is just so boring. =(

woken up by dar early today. asked me to wake up and study just because he can't get to sleep. so evil right! then we went queensway to eat at our favourite bak kut teh stall for lunch. regan wasn't feeling very well (runny nose and slight fever) so came back after that for him to take an early nap. i took the same 4 hours nap also despite trying so hard to keep awake and study. =O how piggy i can get. *geez*

dad wanted to eat at 'tian wai tian' outlet at jurong west for dinner but its closed. got there only to realised that, so disappointing can. i'm craving for the soup. *boo* no choice so drove over to mom's friend kopitiam which is nearby to eat claypot rice instead. we are certainly not going to drive all the way to 'tian wai tian' main branch at balestier with our growling tummies. can kill someone along the way with the peak evening traffic. =P

arranged for dinner initially with the girls (minus jamie whom is still at work and peishan whom has a dinner gathering with her husband's friends at their place) at crown prince's swensen outlet but had family obligations so ask them to go ahead without me first lor. they had finished their food by the time i got there and were thinking of what to do next. then the 3 of us sat there with ONE glass of ice water and moped from 8.30pm to 9.30pm about where to go. among the desperate attempts to find something to do or go, we nearly shopped at mustafa. *bleahz*

i must elaborate more on that ONE glass of ice water. i had burst into laughter when the waitress ask us if we want to refill that ONE glass of water lor. i mean she had cleared the table and left ONE glass, so furnee right. expect us to share meh? maybe its a strategy to chase us away la, eat finish already still sit there don't know for what.

another peculiar thing that i've noticed is that the Q at that outlet is damn long but there are empty tables in the restuarant. don't know how the staffs arrange one. maybe purposely let people Q to attract attention? don't know la. i just feel odd but none of my business as long as i'm not the one that is Q-ing outside. haa...

anyways, back to our destination-less issue. we cannot drink because lisa is driving. we cannot sing because lisa don't like to sing. we cannot watch movie because lisa never bring jacket. BUT me and charmaine is very accomodating today no matter what because she's the queen today - BIRTHDAY GIRL ma!

so we walked and walked and walked and ended up back in her car. then drive and drive and drive and ended up at her house. hur hur... we love going to lisa's place. we rolled on her bed and talked nonsense. had pillow fights and ate tahu goreng. so bo liao. so kong xu. so duh. but we likeee... =)

feeling hungry now. cupboard full of stuffs that i've bought at ntuc yesterday but don't know what to eat. i'm...so...don't know...why...sians...hmmm...stone. i'm getting into my depression mode once again suddenly. maybe its my exams stress. *sighs*

ok la, think i go find some food to stuff myself and go sleep. should make me feel better.

that lasthalo on my sidebar is a GREAT script scripted by dap-friend-now-my-friend-too uzyn. i simple lurve the internet. get to know all kinds and types of people. wheeeee~

anyways, lasthalo is really useful for haloscan users as (1) its free, i don't have to subscribe to haloscan's pay-to-use packages to be notified through e-mails of new comments for any post and (2) i don't have to scroll through my whole blog to see anyone left any comments that i might have missed out.

well, not that i get a lot of comments but still it saves me lotsa time and effort.

so everytime, when i check my blog to see if there are any new comment, i just take a quick lookie at the lasthalo list on my sidebar. and if there is, i just click on it and it would just open up that particular haloscan comment box for that particular new comment.

uzyn is still on the go to improve it further like automatically pin-pointing to that particular post as well upon opening up of that particular haloscan comment box.

its all approved by haloscan. yay~ nothing beats being credited. recognition. fame. glory.

just want to say "way to go, smart alec. as i always say time-to-time, again and again, it all runs in the family one la. haha... CHUA family rocks! =)"

got this horoscope reading site from keith+tania's blog.

i think this is more catered to the guys horoscopes instead (guys usually likes to drink beer better ma, all the advertisments on tv tends to slant in that direction too, so they are probably tiger's targeted consumer group).

odd thing is, i don't think many guys are into horoscope readings and stuffs as its usually a girl's topic what. so if tiger beer specially created this to atrract the guys and shifting the readings to be more guy-based, don't they think its not going to be that great of a promotion gimmick? hmmm, furnee right...

i still remember when bubble tea was first launched by quickly, it was so damn expensive. my favourite honey red tea with pearls used to set me back at $2.80. now i can get exactly the same thing at $1.00 from sweet talk. if they can sell at $1.00 and still make a profit, imagine the enormerous profits quickly had made them. 'ka' me sia! =P

just came back from meeting dap for lunch at chua chu kang lot 1. had to return her the textbooks she loaned to me for my relief teaching stint. "thanks a million, girl! and sorry to make you come all the way. i really appreciate it lots. didn't realise your literacy assignment deadline is tomorrow, or else maybe i can meet you at jurong point instead. and sorry for being late ok. hee..."

as i was making my way back, for some reason a conversation i had with cheryl surfaced in my mind. i had met her for lunch too some time back at bouna vista (near her workplace). we were at this coffee shop that is quite popular in that vicinity. i had ordered duck porridge because i wasn't really feeling well that day.

me : hey, the stall i ordered from is run by a young couple lei. like our age you know. their business not bad also because the foods they sell very yummy.
cheryl : is it? wait, i see. *peers over* ya lor.
me : ey, if your dar's family has a stall then ask your dar to take-over the stall, which he did and if you marry him, he ask you to help out, will you?
cheryl : *think think think* no, i won't lei.
me : why?
cheryl : its just not what i want to do in my career lor. then what for i so 'xin ku' work full-time and study part-time now?

i've pondered over the question myself. will i quit my banking job (working in a nice office, air-con, 9am to 5pm, 5 days) to work at the stall with my beloved? answer is, i think i most probably will, provided if the stall has a roaring business and he needs me to help out.

but of course, i think i wouldn't want to do it for the rest of my life. maybe try to help out as a start and then slowly help to develop it - from a stall owner to a business owner.

doing the business yourself can be very exhausting. you put in all your efforts, time and youth into the business. you hardly get to enjoy the fruits of your labour because you are so engrossed in it. but being a business owner is different. you have people do it for you. sure, you still spend your efforts, time and youth in it, but not as much. then you have time to enjoy life like going on holidays.

*'yu jian' music ringing* wait, answer a call... ok, backie. an old friend just called. she's got nothing to do and wanna pop by to visit me. ok, enough of my random thinking. gotta catch up a bit on my reading before she comes. =)

well, have been holed up at home of late trying to study but not very successful looking at the speed i'm covering my textbook and notes. *sighs*

during a recent catch-up session with a few girlfriends.

me : so mimi, are you attached?
mimi : yup.
chacha : how long liao? how you know him?
mimi : 6 months lor. he is the senior consultant in my current company.
sasa : not bad ar! you got your australia pr liao right? so you intend to go back there? to renew the 5 years validity pr, you must stay in australia for 2 years out of 5 years right?
mimi : ya, plan to ask company to transfer me there maybe next year. then apply for spouse pr for him.
me : wa, so fast you and him talk about this ar? i mean its like only 6 months lei! *gasp*
mimi : this one good lei. i must grab liao. don't waste time. not young already!
sasa : how come good? he very nice to you?
mimi : he "ba heng kuai"! (translates - climb the corporate ladder very fast)
me, sasa & chacha : *faints*

p.s : note that names has been changed

mimi is a steady pom pee pee friend of mine that knows what she wants and how to get it. all her past string of boyfriends were rich. we are always amazed by her ability to spot rich guys in pubs or among the crowd. i mean who goes about asking "hey, do you drive? what car? what does your family do?" to find a rich mr right, right? but she has the uncanny sense to sniff out such guys even without asking. i really really really take my hat off to her.

i totally agree on her viewpoint. or rather, all of us (me, sasa & chacha) do. but the 3 of us never follow our heads, instead we chose to follow our hearts. all 3 of us fell in love with guys that has qualifications below us, poor and definitely don't "ba heng kuai". [ edited on 7 April 2005 : i just want to emphasize that me, sasa and chacha are very happy in our current relationships. we love our other half madly, deeply and unconditionally. we accept them for who they are, if not, why would we chosen them to be our beloved in the first place. ]

although i don't practice what i think, i always preach to my single friends, buddies and sister to date, fall in love and marry rich guys. minimium standard of rich guys - stay in condo, drives a bmw and runs a family-owned business. other things like age and appearance don't really matter. love can be grown as evident in match-making era of my grandma.

being a resonable person, i don't go about promoting this theory of mine without my valid reason of course. i vividly remember this real life story i've read in a magazine.

a world famous watch maker (i forgot his name but his watches are retailing for like $10,000 and above) had married his childhood sweetheart of 30 years. she had stood by him throughout all the hard times. gave him her moral support. they had a beautiful relationship and 3 beautiful children.

he works from this workshop near his home to make watches to be distributed around the world for exhorbitant sums. every morning, he would see this girl walk past his workshop at 9am. he became really curious about the girl. so one day, he stood at the door of the workshop and decided to say something to the girl "hi, good morning. nice weather today!". the girl smiled.

as time passes, a greeting became an affair. finally, he decides to come clean with the wife and marry the girl. he went home and simply told the wife "i've fallen in love with another girl." the wife nodded her head and soon they were divorced. everything happened amicably. then he married the girl and live till this day.

its not that he didn't love his wife at the beginning. he had loved her. but he fell in love with another girl years after.

after i've finished reading the article, i felt mortified. its just so scary.

the guy that tells you "i love you" today might not feel the same for you tomorrow. feelings can change without a warning within seconds.

i think thats my greatest fear, that one day, my dar wakes up and tells me "i do not love you anymore" and worse if "i've fallen in love with someone else" and the worstest would be "i've fallen in love with a man"!

so i always say, in order to be less pathetic when such a scenerio arises, marry a rich guy so that if it happens, you've got half of his money. of course, given a choice, i would still choose love. but if no love, then at least got money ma, right?

now no one is going to complain that the photo is too blur because i don't have a scanner or that the photo is too orbit with hands putting on shoulders. haa... =D

i'm so happy. we finally got group shots after like 5 whole years. yay~

i'm so craving for ice wine now.

had my first taste like a month back when my dad's neighbour brought some over for us to try. its so yummy. =9

i'm not really an alcoholic person. i dislike the 'siap' taste regardless if its red wine, white wine, liquor, beer, DOM, champagne and so on. but i do engage in social drinking because i very accomodating one ok. how can friends order "long island tea, champagne, lychee martini, beer" then i drink "coke" right? hur hur...

anyways, my 1st sip of the ice wine made me fell in love with it due to its sweetness! but its not really popular or well-known in singapore yet, maybe due to its more pricey price tag as compared to its sisters and brothers wines.

whenever i meet any of my alcoholic fanatics friends and ask them where i can get it, noone seems to even hear of it before.

me : ey, you know where got serve ice wine anot?
alcoholic girlfriend : ice wine? won't spoil meh? *thinking its some red or white wine put in the freezing compartment of the refrigerator to become ice first then serve it*
me : ._." its ok la.
alcoholic girlfriend : what?
me : nothing la. i find out liao then tell you ok. =)

i know they sell it in dfs (because neighbour bought it from there ma) but anyone knows if anywhere serves it? it would be nice to be able to chill out with some friends and enjoy the sweetness together.

why is it called ice wine?

Grapes are left on the vine well into the winter months. The resulting freezing and thawing of the grapes dehydrates the fruit, and concentrates the sugars, acids, and extracts in the berries, thereby intensifying the flavours and adding complexity to the wine made from it.

The grapes are painstakingly picked by hand in their natural frozen state, ideally at temperatures of -10 to -13 degrees celsius. Sometimes the picking must be done at night to take advantage of the temperature.

The frozen grapes are pressed in the extreme cold. The water in the juice remains frozen as ice crystals, and only a few drops of sweet concentrated juice is obtained. This juice is then fermented very slowly for several months, stopping naturally.

ooooooooo, its simply heavenly...

*yawns* just came back from shan's wedding dinner and feeling kinda tired. but gotta wait for my hair to dry before i can tuck myself in bed. hee... ok, thats an excuse for me to stay online longer because there's always a thing called the hairdryer. =0

the bride was pretty (as usual la, i never see any ugly brides before can), the place was so nicely decorated (of course la, its a wedding dinner, not nice noone want to have it there liao) and the food was yummy (ok la, after a succession of yucky wedding dinner banquets, this one finally tasted not bad). BUT i enjoyed the catching up part with long lost bestest friends best. we talked, joked and laughed about all the old times. i really love them loads.

after the dinner, me, sa and char (minus jamie) went to selegie's mr bean to reminisce further about all the silly times in poly we had (especially clubbing incidents which were side-splitting).

actually we drove to introbar at raffles city first, but its gonna close at 1am (we reached there at 12am) and we don't forsee we will wrap up the night in an hour's time, so decided drive over to the not-very-far mr bean instead. duh... wasted sa's and my parking there because we took our own sweet time to sashay to introbar from the carpark and even stop by the ladies for some toilet gossip, hence we exceeded the 15 minutes allowance time. =P

took some pictures using char's digital camera but her usb port on her computer is not working so gotta wait till she go her boyfriend's, ah hock, house to upload it and sent to us. ZzzZZzz... she still owes me photos taken the previous time round can. *bleahz*

everyone is owing me photos. i'm a sad-case. no digital camera. feel kinda lost without a digital camera in my bag. dying to lay my hands on one. *sighs*

i'm dying to lay my hands on a lot of things la. a new handphone (nokia next, i'm sick of samsung and sony ericsson), a new wallet (gucci gucci gucci), a new mp3 player (correction : a mp3 player because i don't own any at the moment - a stylo milo ipod), a new... its an endless list.

really wish wish wish to have some lady luck befall on me. but then again, i don't buy 4-d, toto or big sweep so never buy where got chance to strike. =/

discussing to get together for a mahjong session with the girls just now during the dinner, hands itchy! so long no play mahjong can. although i seldom win but its the playing process that's all so fun. wheee~

sa's birthday is coming soon. so sad. we are all celebrating our quarter-century birthday this year. the thought is simply so depressing. meeting up again next sunday to celebrate for her. *gasp* but with my exams just lurking around the corner, i'm so torn in between. guess can try to squeeze it in somehow. i don't think i would be studying anyway. haven't been really concentrating on my studies since the thursday before last. gosh... i must really get down to it seriously. FOCUS!

ok, hair is almost dry now. time to get my beauty rest. will get my photos for tonight up as soon as char send me the photos. => night night peeps!

after struggling to wake up due to the nice weather to laze in bed, i finally got changed and made my way down to bugis to meet estee & cheryl. i was late as usual. was supposed to meet at 2.30pm but i left my house at 2.30pm. so now you know la, if want to meet me, always quote something earlier ok. hee... i haven't been sticking to my new year resolution to be punctual at all. *geez*

we ate at a hotpot restaurant at liang seah street called 'xian de lai'. rumours, hearsays and recommendations from various friends supported liang seah street's yummy, delicious and nice hotpots to only disappoint. i think its so-so only. the suntec 'chong qing hotpot' is still nicer can. *bleahz*

estee just came back from japan, so after we finished eating, we hang around looking at all the pictures she took during her trip. she was sharing her naked 'hot springs' stories which were hilarious. haa... we talked and talked and talked till we got shooed away as the restaurant was getting ready for dinner.

before we left, we were agreeing to try, squeeze and fit in a trip to hong kong together this year. sq tickets to hong kong are really cheap. even cheaper than valuair. hopefully its not all talk and no action. i'm dying to eat the mango pudding there. *slurps*

as estee was lugging around her heavy bag of photos (she had 10 4R albums), she left first even though i said its good exercise and can help her lose some weight so she don't need to go for her slimming sessions. =p well, having nothing much to do, me and cheryl continued walking around the shopping arcade aimlessly.

ok la, only she is aimless. peishan's (buddy in poly) big day is tomorrow, so i was looking for something nice to buy to wear it there. i have nothing nice in my cupboard at all. =( lots to catch up with my best friends in poly tomorrow. i'm getting so excited. hee... but its kinda far. all the way in tanah merah. *gasp* shan's having her dinner along with the solemnization at laguna national golf and country club. that reminds me, i need to check it out on the directory on how to get there. don't want to get lost and miss the kissing. keke...

anways, so we walked and walked and walked and i tried and tried and tried to look for a perfect top/bottom/dress. i was almost giving up till i saw this black dress at yen. simple, chic, nice. but when i tried it on, i don't look simple, chic or nice in it. thanks to my bulging tummy can. *sighs* but i still bought it.

so in order to look simple, chic AND nice, i've decided to go on a hunger strike. i shall not eat a single morsel. i shall not eat the shark fin and save the sharks tomorrow. i shall not give in to my sweet tooth and consume any chocolates. i shall not...er...hmmm...ok, i'm feeling hungry now from all the thinking. i will start my hunger strike after i eat my supper. going to cook myself some potato smiles which i bought just now. looks yummy. =9

just for the record, the above flowers were not bought by dar ok. its bought and given by the same said girlfriend mentioned in my previous post that dragged me out of the florist yesterday. she so sweet right. by the way, she's extremely straight, single and available.

i finally broke the silence last night. after concluding that dar is enjoying the peace and quiet between us instead of being remorseful, i decided to kick up a fuss. i started the fuss at 8pm through sms (he was out).

me : are you enjoying the peace?
dar : no. i already said sorry what. so what you want?
me : i just want to be happy. since you don't seem to get it, i shall be explicit. i want a bouquet of flowers, a face-to-face apology and your promise that it wouldn't happen again.

he didn't reply to my last sms so i happily assumed i will get what i want when he's back. but hell, NO! he came back, took a nice bath and got ready for bed. i was boiling with new-found anger. but i contained it till he came and said goodnight to me.

well, the volcano in me just erupted. anyways, after a couple of hours of hoo-haa, my dearest friend, tin, called. but i didn't pick up the call because i wasn't in the right condition to answer her call at all. nevertheless, she called a few times and sent a few sms-es before giving up. after me and dar was done settling our differences, i gave her a call back worrying if its anything important although its at 4am in the morning.

that forgetful girl was actually at my block wandering around looking for the right unit when she 1st called, even though she's here before. "girl, you so blur can!" when i called back, she's already home but drove all the way back again to pass me something. yes, its that nice, lovely and pretty mini bouquet of sunflower with a bear attached above. i'm really so so so touched by her gesture. *tearing*

me : dar, you see she so got my heart ok not like you can!
dar : ok lor.
me : you very heng hor. someone else helped you buy the flowers liao.
dar : you know why? because i yan dao ma!
me : ._." #$%^&* why didn't you buy the flowers just now? the florists wasn't closed when i sms-ed you just now ok.
dar : i didn't know you want it today what.
me : then when? next month ar? (".)

*hmpf* guys! i simply give up... they are just so dumb at times.

thinking of learning exotic dancing. any kakis? wonder which dancing school is more reowned for it. that should make me a less two-left-feet dancer. =P ok set! i shall enrol myself after my exams. *gasp* talking about exams, its in 12 days time.

supposedly meeting estee and cheryl for dinner today. but with the exhausting night i had, decided to changed it to lunch tomorrow. they are so-going to skin me alive. i had moved our date from wednesday to friday and then now to saturday.

plans to go to malaysia for some dvds buying on sunday. which reminds me of the previous trip a month back. we were at the customs check booth on our way back as usual and about to drive off after the routine boot checking when the custom officer decided during the last minute-th to look into my bag. kaos... i got the offence-violator face meh? heng, never put the dvds there ok though initally i wanted to as they don't usually check one ma. so i shall get ready for them and stuff my bag this coming sunday with a boxful of tampons. i'm evil. hur hur...

updates on lovelife - nothing. status quo. things still the same. so sad. so depressing. so frustrating. i nearly bought myself a bouquet of sunflowers at jurong point on behalf of dar to tell myself he's really remorseful and he just don't know what to do that's all. i gave him yet another chance. i sms-ed him to ask if he's genuinely apologetic. then i went to the florist and shopped for a bouquet of flowers. but dar didn't reply. i still wanted to go ahead and buy that bouquet of flowers to tell myself he really loves me because he meant to give me that bouquet of self-bought flowers but maybe because he's tired or busy so that's why he hasn't replied my sms till my girlfriend pulled my ear and dragged me to the car. how sad can my life get at times.

updates on career - nothing. status quo. things still the same. so sad. so depressing. so frustrating. partner called and after much discussion, we concluded that none of the units we saw can make it though we were initially contemplating on 2. in the end, we decided to wait abit and see if there are any better ones. patience always has its rewards ma. must learn the spirit from colonel don't-know-who whom invented the kfc original chicken recipe. he approached 125 restaurants before the 126th bought his recipe ok. or from thomas edison whom tried tens of thousands of materials before he invented the light bulb.

updates on family - nothing. status quo. things still the same. so sad. so depressing. so frustrating. rabbit still alive. maid didn't make any blunders today. OHHH, theres something, the chicken in the house just laid an egg. haha... dad was so excited about the first egg that he puts in right in center of the living room as a center piece. duh... its meant to be eaten right. feeling pretty bad also that i was kinda rude to my mom today because i was in a really lousy mood. "sorry mom, though you will never read this, but its the thought that counts right. i love your cooking. i really do."

updates on studies - nothing. status quo. things still the same. so sad. so depressing. so frustrating. i'm still stuck at market risk which is chapter 8 of my bank treasury textbook since last thursday. in case you are wondering if its a very long chapter, its only 12 pages. i have been doing lots of non-productive stuffs like bloghopping.

i have a concentration problem like dap's friend, uzyn. whenever i try to study, i will have this sudden 'ling gan' that someone has sent me an urgent e-mail or someone had left a comment in my blog (not that many people read or respond to my posts anyway) or a buddy has just post an important entry in her blog that i must read.

then i will struggle for the next 2 hours not to do any of the above. with the end conclusion that during the said two hours, nothing is done. i should have check the e-mail, respond to my blog's comments (if any) and read my buddy's post. damn. that will take me less than 2 hours to do.

when i was bloghopping till the wee hours of the morning and came across sites which i think is very interesting. ONE : didi-bear. he's simply so adorable can. TWO : the adventures of pudding. well, this proves not all sq girls (other than my sq friends, haha, must exclude them, they read my blog also, "right jane & char?") are bimbos. not all of them are act stylo only. not all of them are talentless. only some are.

i'm not condemning them. i yearn to fly in fact. though a lot of my girlfriends whom flys always assures me that if i do join them, it would be the worst decision of my life and i would definitely regret it, i always tell them - its not about the job you know, its about the places you can go, the things you can see and the experience you can get.

i do get revolted by their work practices of absolute wicked bantering of new girls by senior girls when any of them share their experiences with me but its part of the culture of sia since ever so long ago. and its not going to change anytime soon so learn to live with it till you are senior lor i guess. theres always pros and cons to any career path one has chosen one la. there is no such thing as a perfect job.

but i will never get pass all those tough entry tests where they are looking out for the X factor. i don't possess any 'x' factor. and i'm like hitting their cut-off age. so depressing. thus, this career option is out. *bleahz*

it was raining heavily in the afternoon. i love such weather unless i have plans for outdoor stuffs like beaching, swimming or rollerblading. i was driving on the way back from jurong point after lunch with tin and joanna when it started to pour heavily.

i really enjoy times in the car alone in the car where all the outside seems like a blur with the heavy rain pitter pattering down on my windscreen and seeing the windscreen wipers flurry action swiping the rainwater away. so hypnotizing.

remember times when i was very young, me and my friends would just play madly in the rain, splashing one another, stomping on water puddles and rushing home to have a hot bath after that. well, now that we are all grown-ups and i don't really enjoy the wet inner beauty getting squishy feeling. kinda...kow wei. you also don't see 25 yr olds prancing on sidewalks during rainy days, do you? its simply so un-25-like. keke... though i may be retarded and moronic at times, the rest of the times i'm normal ok. or i try my best to behave normally. hur hur...

oh well... today is april's fool day. i remember all the practical jokes i used to play in secondary school - changing of classroom with neighbour classroom, turning of the tables so it faces the back instead of the blackboard (yes, my era is blackboard, not whiteboard), telling the teacher she got the wrong class as its not her period and blah blah blah. days of innocent fun. i really hate getting old!!! i'm getting so nostalgia. what's wrong with me man. =P